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This is what I lived 100%

Well that didn't happen. Police are on our tales. They put a device on laptop and the moment it was turned on we were traced through location and the organised crime started out side. We were living in a home with family violence and couldn't believe we had walked into a nightmare. Now trapped no money, parents having trouble getting money for rental to us. This woman defaming my family in the public including farming badminton and every where she goes. We have no voice because we are in a country with nothing and no-one and no money, and cant stand up to this family because they helped us so kept there little secret but knew the moment we could get away from this, we would have to cut tires as I don't want to be with people that allow inappropriate behaviours. This caused the perpetrator to defame big time not knowing if I would talk or not. Which I didn't I told one person because I trusted her.

This person I trusted is a social worker and a psychologist, connected the family abuser where we were staying, her husband religious, I had to trust someone and tell my story to try get us help or suggest options as we did not know the community at all. Sadly this person was put in front of us through organised crime from New Zealand. She knew the police officer I spoke of. She tried helping with getting an investigator and allowed me to use her computer to send email to a prime turkey. Who refused to work for me would only kill for $20,000. He's an ex police. Anyway we were stoned walled in getting an investigation into what just happened in New Zealand even though I knew we needed to get a professional to collect information so we could deal with the corrupt courts, lawyer and Morgans, police neglect. We knew at that point and after seeing a lawyer that we were not going to be allowed to get justice. I decided we were pretty much screwed and that I will do what ever I have to do to survive with health problems being a stumbling block and we will go it alone here until one day I get my opportunity to deal to this absolute disgraceful crime.

I have my phone controlled with "let it go" James Bay put on it, I am absolutely annoyed that Im being controlled and cant do anything, if I tell the kids they will think I downloaded it by accident or something and not believe me, and think I'm paranoid or something, perfect crime to frame a woman. Only educated people know how people in high places work the IT breaches and control. The courts said to me on last visit "let it Go", this is not acceptable. We are victims of institutional violence beyond any measure. We are in a new country yet still controlled by the same crime.

Everywhere I go im hearing stories about depresssion autism as if I have autism, all sorts of nonsense especially in the dancing world. I am being harmed in dancing with internal violence and corruption from New Zealand. From "Pay backs a bitch" from one person in pakenham, to a woman from Canberra comes up to me and says, I was married to a cop and there is no protection, she mistreats me and causes trouble in dancing, I don't know her from a bar of soap. I am abused by males in dancing so refuse to dance with men most the time because I cant be bothered with internal violence so I dance on my own. I don't need people and their rubbish thank you, but no thank you. I cant tell anyone because I know i'm being assessed and abused, so I have to shut up and take it protecting myself as much as possible. The abuser that we stayed at was also connected to dancing through her mother and the council. I would dance with one guy who would jump into the sack with me if he got the chance, he's married and i'm not available or interested, he gets me and makes comments, I have to respond to them so I laugh and people think i'm having a good time when I don't actually have a choice, if I ignore him he gets titchy, either way I cant win. No different if someone is being tickled tortured they laugh when they are not wanting to. You have to just access the situation and try keep the piece, i'm being assessed by social worker. Not good at all, she would have me medicated. Her daughter a dancer I went to watch dancesport with them and her daughter looked lovely but I don't think like any of them, they couldn't see that there was really only one person on the dance floor that had the X factor, although I didn't like her dress as it didn't fit the dance but by god she could dance the rest are just lovely little fairies dancing away like her daughter. They play out top cop from Timaru, with look alike dancing people some know i'm on radio which is illegal against my consent, there's a breach on you tube, including illegal online dating I am put on and media, and alot of defamation regarding me when they don't know a thing about me. Morgan violence everywhere, we are in a new country yet abused and Morgan knows where we are, that's disturbing, we just gave up our life for freedom, my family being groomed by medical and others, nursing, religious exorcisms and nonsense being done behind the scenes entering my home, all sorts of disturbing happenings, we have no voice, no where to go. Nurse and Police violence plus Morgan from New Zealand controlling this.

My children and I are not connected to Morgans they lost the rights they abuse. I get jobs for kids straight up no worries but I am refused jobs, they won't let me get financial freedom, i'm being controlled, and I knew I had a serious problem. My parents are being fully controlled in New Zealand my mother abused by white collar and blue collar organised crime. My parents do not understand organised crime or how the psychologically takes a person down, through power, phone all amenities fucking with accounts addresses, figures to cause chaos, and social media and through people put in their life for grooming and control of whole family. This Is where the violence is. This is the foundation for all the family violence and pain caused to my family. It is these people playing god in our lives that did the damage. The breaches the recordings the defamation all contributing to a crime scene from hell.

Anyway we get out from the violence and move close to school, then we have organised crime outside and a gun shot put through my sons window, a dead animal carcus at the door all sorts of disturbing violence, phones from mr Bloomfield illegal controlled, and child help lines insulting me as a parent, we end up leaving there and move to another home a newish home which the perpetrators are mates with, once again being controlled by criminals, this where they play out the Diana and Charles game from hell, pig face in garden, smoke butts outside and all sorts of organised crime. dirty police using Morgan name come into my home, more games lies and violence, dirty Morgan name on road sign where I end up working at crossing, i'm being abused by Morgan everywhere by people in the community council psychological violence police corruption beyond measure. I mean like we don't need all this drama in our lives. Whats it over. They are my children I have custody and he has no rights, so what's it over? So my computer now controlled by Emergency broadcasting warning this is first responders and government. The social worker told me to get off social media, I said why? i'm not doing anything. The reason obviously is somebody is in my name, its not me. Then she says she will get someone to help with my computer, so she gets hope church IT to open my computer up to the world of scientology and corruption including psychiatrists, religious. Ive now got in front of me, I will get you the best help, you are sick. Im like what are you talking about? They are talking about a laptop that the police were given by me in 2013 to get a report on it so I could get Morgan locked up because he used that laptop and I believed there was information on that laptop that was illegal but couldn't prove it. I even showed a cop at my home remote access which they ignored. The police decided they would play games with me neglect my family and beat us up to protect him and make out i'm the sick one, knowing that was not true. This is about protecting a crime from 2000 that Morgan is part of. My family innocent never done anything to anyone the Morgans on the other hand criminals and very sick. Not going to go into the crimes don't need to the police already know and need to act.

Anyway I go with this i'm sick of the nonsense as I don't have a choice thinking, ok, this when the physco dog is giving out religious pamphlet's, at dancing, its an exorcism by muslim catholics online where they are now talking all this religious business online and giving me stories to read. Highlighting them in yellow. Im still wondering what the sickness is? Anyway I send a letter to police, because I know we have a serious problem i'm being harmed at motel I work at, and organised crime committed there, and I've got a serious problem trying to get an income which the kids did not understand. My mother and I had an agreement that she would pay the equlaivant to the rent to keep us until the kids had all finished school so I had that time to get my health right and get a job, but what happened is all these no it all pokey noises were controlling me in the community telling me what i'm going to do or what I should be doing when it is none of there business. I being told i'm not allowed my youngest son in this country, just rubbish. they caused massive problems with my parents feeding them lies which once again not there business. We were accused of not paying tax, which was another load of rubbish, parents are allowed to gift so much a year to grandchildren and children. They were gifts and some of it was from the sale of my items. Too many people with too much to say about something they knew nothing about. I should'nt have to explain myself to people it is not there business. Im being questioned by people where's the money coming from to live. Out home looks like we ha money because we got quality things second hand, it hardly cost us a cent except for time collecting them all over Melbourne. So in the community they are using me as a subject for a disturbing game. I could not get a benefit as im not Australian. no entitlement. I was played with, by a woman, by the name leanne at Centrelink while they played a tax game from the motel more violence and a $5 game. I don't have the energy for this crime you idiots. Im being harmed at motel by the guy from dancing who said pay backs a bitch which is coming from nurse in New Zealand. He is part of disability and IT and Dancing and Motel and a big part of the organised crime. He also is the reason my brother was pushed out of dance sport NZ, he was president at the time I think.

This is when it is put to me about being a cop, i'm think well this should be fun, I cant even run, so I get some books on nz police and think ok, I will work towards that. Mum knew and knew it would be a journey. Im at the gym being groomed by gym father, for the medical criminals, who are controlling my welfare which is illegal, putting up dirty media religious media like this music all sorts of questionable music.

I am also told through a professional I went to see, that I would have to teach dancing to be allowed to be a citizen in the country, or pay $10,000 this now to do with ACC illegal accessing my records. The TGM236 violence, I was like that isn't going to be happening, there is no partner or anyone to help that would interest me. they thought they were going to have me teach old time, like hell, I don't teach old time. I didn't want to basically be in a rest home teaching people left right left right, turn two three. Not on my terms but controlled by people with very basic thinking strategies and there teaching styles I will never put my name to, and i'm not working for free while my mother pays for us to survive and I get no security or home or work from that, its not going to happen. My mothers help was for the children and for me to get my health right and get an income not do charity work for free. So they decided with the badminton i'm to be coach and then i'm going to be slave there instead. Like hello who's pulling who's strings here? Im like this is not the life I have on my bucket list. These people have no understanding of my physical health they have no right to be interfering, my financial or private life it is not there business. I will not work for religious corrupt governments as if i'm a criminal having to do time for free and no life, a public servant with no rights. The intentions of me running dancing or coaching is not the problem here or any people that had good intentions, the problem is the people who knew the truth but were going to exploit me for what they could get for free. The arranged marriage violence where I was being controlled and abused to get me to be a yes person to submit to a perpetrator who is all about controlling victim not love not partnership but controlling and a life of a religious sex slave, not going to happen sorry, don't treat me like that, this has all come from things like my wedding video with a comment regarding obeying, I've put up with so much violence and so much control I don't know how I survived it. It becomes violence when it is intentional and purposing matching up with the media they are doing to control me, remember my life is only media control, that's my guide for each day. At badminton chirao Christian school is wearing t shirt with obey. Anyway this community is full of people that are uneducated in life, they may know one subject but are very limited in there thinking as to how communities work, how internal violence works, remembering perpetrators with ulterior motives will abuse to get there own way, this was done to me.

Getting onto the police, so I enter Australia and I cant do a push up let alone run. I go to gym and try to get strength in my body which is very slow.

I now have the police next to me every day I go walking, in their vehicle, they are along side me as I try to run, so I believe they are seriously wanting me to join the police and I am going to be brought up in front of the nation as they say on my computer. remember all my guidance is online no conversation with humans. Anyway they neglected me in New Zealand now they want to help me be a police officer it was all kinda strange really. My children do not understand this, which makes the perfect crime to have children think i'm mentally sick saying these things, about control on my computer phone etc, as if they would be interested in me type comments. Why do you think they would bother with someone like you, you're not famous type thing. Anyway the NZ Police listen to me while im at the breakfast bar and i'm tapping so they put up a tapping video in the lift. I was like this is really cool. Then they do running man challenge all these cool things put in front of me on media so I think this is amazing. I had put up in front of me, that two teenagers running from the past, which is bullshit, I had this all the time on my phone, this when running man challenge done. Not running from anything. I do something then they do something, to respond. I'm connected with officers from America. And all sorts of people Dr Phil nonsense, fireproof being played out, it's a movie from America baptist. IM basically living in a movie now that these religious and officials are playing out. some of it very entertaining but some below the belt like stupid Daniels pig and Tammy rubbish. Now we have people wanting to change light bulbs so they can watch you in bed and the muslims. Anyway that is at mc nielly and its when I get to boronia st that the violence starts and just months of crap this when the pig snorts had decided I was a non starter, I was to be destroyed. It's disturbing but true.

I had a guy who was connected to nurse and police put in my life at badminton and he groomed me and played out disgusting nonsense, mistreats woman, inappropriate, his intentions not honourable, I was given 5 videos to watch, sharpelle corby, sugar, police academy, Snowden, something else. this coming from nurse. What I didn't like about this was he made out it was for the benefit of the children him helping with badminton, but he was wanting a relationship when I made it clear i'm not having one at this time, he would talk inappropriately and ignore when I asked him not to do things like drive like an idiot racing, say have you ever had a fist up you. he's connected to top cop New Zealand, many nonsense things played out regarding nurse, he then made me listen to this in the car, being a little bitch. TGM236 violence.

He was really getting off on the control over me, I ended it with him because i'm not brought up with all that nonsense its actually degrading. He went below the belt when he wanted to use me to hurt his ex, I finished it with him and said no more badminton, he turned nasty and abused me in the community. I was basically told by my son I have to be with him or I will be homeless because my son left the home and didn't pay towards living anymore, when we all had an agreement, with mum, he broke it and left us in a bad situation, its called forcing a woman into a situation to make her put out. I won't take it. I had not gone to all the trouble to leave violence to be in a relationship that is not for me. As a person he was ok but as a relationship for me he did not have the equalities I was looking for and he knew I was not interested like that. Glad I finished it because his behaviour since showed what he is capable of and that is not for me.

It is really important to understand who I am, it all stems back form my ovarian cyst. That situation caused a young girl to realise that it didn't matter how much nurture my mum gave me, how much she felt a failure as a mother not being able to stop my pain, not being able to understand which obviously I didn't either. It taught me that I am on my own, I cannot stop the pain, I don't have answers, I cannot do this on my own because the pain was to big, hours or temperatures caused by the reaction from the twist, hours of horrific pain, crouched over rocking and holding my breath to try eleviate the pain, vomiting, months of this, nothing could stop what was happening, so I had to find a high place within my self to cope, as I didn't have the strength, most will never understand but the truth is, it was my faith that got me through, my faith in the fact this will get better, i'm taking this blow so others don't have to, what ever positive reinforcing I had to do to to try get understanding for a situation I could not control. This makes me into a person who becomes very aware of my surroundings and people and their misfortunes, their emotions, their lives. It also made me realise I can get through anything I just have to learn to channel my pain and go to a place of peace while in this situation, even though the pain was still there, it is a little bit like meditation. This is the foundation for my life now, a new outlook on how to get through tough situations. When Police in Timaru told me I needed to get a man and get off the streets, trying to isolate me and harm me down the street in 2014, I told him "I cant just have anyone". I don't believe he would of had any idea what that means. But it means high standards and depth about them that is similar to me and the X factor tendencies. It's based on character. I cant be with just anyone and I never have been able to be because after the ovarian cyst it was clearer the kind of person I would need to have the dream I always dreamed of, to have a loving husband and family free from any violence. I really thought when Bloomfield walked in that my dreams may just come true. Boy was I wrong.

I just want to touch on what the purpose of me being in Australia was. I went to Australia for freedom from control and violence by officials and Morgan. I went there to look after my children, my whole reason for going is if I don't leave I will be locked up and the children will not have a mother or a chance of life they will be taken over by corrupt Morgans. my whole belief system is about getting myself in a healthy state physically, to make friends and find my way around the community, to give my children the best education with what I had on offer, to make sure my children had love, nature and caring, that I was there to drive to school etc and be there rock emotionally, to make sure they always had a voice and that they were free to be themselves, so they could heal as fast as possible. To give a stable and good guidance in life, to get them into part time employment or full time depending on child to give them a extra bit of money, to make sure they knew I loved them and would do anything for them. For my personal life my life is my children, I did not what a boyfriend or a husband, I wanted freedom to set my self up in the community and get a good foundation, and financial freedom before entering into any relationship. There is no point running to men, knowing how men are, to have all this lovy dovy stuff when this is a distraction from me being self sufficient and creating myself. To have a male take so much of my time which is taken then from my families and if it goes wrong i'm left again with defamation and no life, cant have that, was never going to work for me. I made it very clear to men so they knew this is how it is. I was being listened into in my home and that information was used to control me in the community, to have people do things etc.

Now I went to longwarry dancing and saw this guy that looked single, we will call him Bloomfield, he appeared to be a quiet decent man who was middle aged. What the problem was with this person is he is very religious and would give me phampets on religion, all part of this exorcism that is going to take place, and all of there information was rubbish and lies I was no possessed with illness from the devil so to speak even though this is what religious people believe. I was groomed big time. I Thought that at some stage there may be something between us as he appeared to have standards and respectful. The problem was firstly I heard a lot of conversations about him and his mental disabilities, by uneducated people, also through this breach they played out this game of we will bring you two together, so I was free to go dancing and he would just be there, the problem was he would for example come and sit next to me for 2 seconds, leave his top on chair next to me and I wouldn't see him for the rest of the evening, he didn't really speak at all and was very reserved, he would ask me for 1 dance only at the end. He didn't know how to dance and a witch was controlling him, a nurse religious nutter who was feed information from New Zealand. Bloomfield looked like he was giving me the space to get to know people and free from relationship so to speak as they knew this is what I wanted at this time in my life. Bloomfield through the lie about my mental state etc controlled a lot of my environment. The problem here was I never got to actually get to know him because he kept his distance so was hard to see if this is someone I may of been interested in down the track. I knew him through the media I was feed but found it really hard not being able to have normal conversations. The weird thing is there is more than one of those men in the family that is single looking for partners/wifes, they played with me and I decided I didn't like that game, I like upfront people who do not play the look alike games trying to confuse there subject. Anyway I liked him and thought this could be the man to give my family the life they deserve. I danced with him at one time and felt very safe with him, not like others who are two minute wonders. I really don't have time for men and they're problems or men and there intentions that are not about families or futures. My question for Bloomfield is when he knew I was being harmed at dancing how many times did he stand for me or stop it, he didn't and he was listening and getting information about me in my home.

So with the understanding i'm not looking for a serious relationship I will continue to show gender violence in the community and internal nonsense. The secretary on Drouin board was nothing more than a torn in my side. She is also farming and religious. Everything I wanted to do in the community she would say no, she would get the parents to play out what I wanted to do and make a mess instead. Something as simple a having oranges cut up into quarters, etc at half time for the kids to bring them together for a prep talk while they are refreshed. Well that's not going to happen says secretary to herself. What she did in that moment was once again take away from the children and the team, where its a time the coach gets to give some sound advice as a group. Otherwise there is no break time for conversations everyone just wonders around doing whatever and we are going no where, no organisation nothing, this is what she did to me the whole time, preventing me from doing anything that was essential to get these people to come together as a team. It's not about money or the best fruit its about the descipline the bringing people together and critiquing. This woman caused me so much hell she stopped everything that the children needed. She is the person who was trying to put me with single men who are not in the same league or class as me. The first guy I was put with a know it all aura, he is fine as a person but to work with him would of been a nightmare. He would of prevented me from any advancement. I was in unfamiliar territory and I did not know the community the surroundings or the game I was to coach. By getting a single guy looking for a woman, they are already shooting me in the foot. To top it off he is the kind of person who knows some things about that sport and would have some good inputs but he would of always let me know he knows more than me, tell me what to do, he can play where as, I cant, as if i'm stupid, this is how men can control woman and put them exactly where they want them, and that is doing what a controlling character man says and not being able to flourish. I put a stop to that immediately and said nicely this is not going to happened sorry I will not work with him, that caused nasty nonsense which was not called for, I was not insulting him, I was a vulnerable woman and will not be put in a position to be stood on. I also knew my abilities and will not take on any job until it is the right time, that means shut up sit in the corner and learn. Now after that, the secretary is now organising the next single guy to help me out. Big problems once again im not wanting a relationship. We call him mr pumpkin soup. He decided he was going to come along and help for the children benefit only, he says at the start to help. I said ok fine, this is a nurse from timaru crime. So I allow him because miss secretary wants this, he tells me about being in jail, then about islamic state, Allah, catholics, art, which is where all the horrific muslim violence comes from I put up with, he decides to meet up to have a hit, he lets me know he would go out with me, I told him very quickly that I was not going to be having a relationship, I had met someone and I was pretty much going to let that marinate and would not be jeopardising the chance that one day once my children are older that something may come of it. I was letting mr pumpkin soup know that it is not a rejection but I am taken pretty much not interested. He didn't like this and thought more of a challenge which only comes clear later on. I as I stated was mistreated by this person and I gave to him, I gave him a new dress for a prom type event for his daughter because my daughter couldn't fit it, I made him pumpkin soup and went out of my way to get rolls especially for him, he then insults me and says I didn't think you would ever do something nice for me. it was a nurse from timaru game, he then wanted me to teach him dancing, nurse from timaru game again, he then played this adhd game with medication using mark and other names to play a association game like the corporates at mtf in timaru where they used all my ex boyfriends names as the person signing off the car for my son. Interesting the pumpkin soup that my mother was given from someone in timaru, put her in hospital, this is connected and this is disturbing. This mr pumpkin soup really liked me and really wanted a relationship, I saw his qualities but was not looking at a relationship which fell on deaf ears. He made my life hell because I cut ties with him, I had to, he was inappropriate and I will not have that in my life. He also took my phone like nurse in timaru. I was pretty annoyed, he was also part of council and part of the TGM236 nonsense. Anyway I had to break ties because he was after a relationship and I could not have that with him, I can be friends with everyone and anyone but I cannot give a relationship to the wrong person. I was in a bad situation because I was being controlled and I needed to find a way to get a stable life including income, not be treated like some sick depressed anxiety woman when this is not the truth in any way shape or form. So getting back to mr pumpkin soup he even turned up to my coaching class drunk trying to get me to want him, I wasn't to impressed as if I want a drunk, illegal online because I had a burden on ice, like how else do you get the salvation army to leave you alone, they try make out you have a alcohol problem, rubbish i'm not a drinker, just because I have a few drinks for entertaining myself means absolutely nothing, and why is there a breach on my computer?

When a false record leaves a trail, innocent people who pick up that file will see me as someone I am not. I have never suffered with depression or anxiety. I have had horrific times to deal with and I have been nervous before but that is not medical clinical conditions as they are ongoing or serious. I have an inner strength that no person can break, they an beat me, abuse me, drug me, rape me, you name it but they cant break me and this is where the problem was, because all these simple minded people wanted to control me. I am a person who always does what's right and always follows guidelines etc, spent my life doing what I was told. but I will not be controlled by people with bad intentions. You get tainted as if a controller or a abuser because you refuse to take their violence.

So now mr pumpkin soup out of the picture and i'm now being harmed more by secretary, I am also now at this point where a police officer senior sarge is sent a letter because my life is in danger. 2016. Through the defamation i'm being prevented from employment and treated like a tax frrading stupid mental who can be pushed around and used. The officer is the person who was put in my life before coming to Australia who neglected my welfare and told my doctor he doesn't believe me. The reason he was sent this is because he needed to change, he needed to put right an injustice he neglected and I was desperate. Then when I had the police put in front of me to join, He seduced me on line, and I believed him that he was on the up and up. I didn't have a choice anyway I was fully controlled by media and illegal breaches. Including school principal. Through the breach they were able to put things in front of me in the community, positive things while going through touch times and getting into a stable place, except they didn't seem to want me to do anything that gave me an income. I had to pretty much beg to work at council as volunteer, just to get in the door to change the thinking of the defamation from New Zealand, I knew I needed to show them they have it wrong, and hopefully would lead to paid work, which it did, but only on a limited financial place. I was still being left in a position that I spent all my days volunteering in the community sports and council, and it took up all my time and would not be a pathway to financial freedom, so I knew I still had a serious problem and the community wanted me to be a volunteer, as much as I enjoy people and helping people I had my family destroyed over this, I knew I was doing great for the community but for my life no a future, a lot of these roles I stayed in, because it was part of getting to know the community for community policing. Now mr senior sarge was in a different country, the religious and TGM236 was more than one person and a game. Senior sarge was online and he took my heart my soul and my life in his hands, he is not TGM he is in timaru, he is a man who put up on the media his family i.e. netball Nikki and ex wife so I started to get to see who he was, I did not know him from a bar of soap except he was behind helping me to join police and he had the contacts. Just before I left mcneilly road he was on my Facebook and we were talking I would speak and he would put something up. I told him how I felt and he said I might do something stupid and believe you. Playing the game of say something stupid song. Anyway we left there and things ended up getting worse for me, I was now being accused, implied on Facebook etc that I was under investigation, all sorts. Life changed and the help that was given by the principal was gone and mr Bloomfield he was absolutely gunning for me behind the scenes. I knew I had a bigger problem. Im not going to go into this anymore because I am drained and I cant be bothered with this nonsense. I will say that I set off for a new life with freedom from gender violence and continually got made to be with single people and be put in situations I couldn't do anything about which caused terrible problems. Every person that came into my life was a single man including maintenance men. Its nice to have the options put in front of someone incase there is a spark but I really did not want the hazzles that come with men and relationships where it destroyed everything I was working towards, I was trying to be a cop and coach not a whore waiting to be serviced.

Boronia st was straight out violence, from number 13 police NZ fat rubbish council, black Holdens like criminal from mr pumpkin soup, badminton to top cop, 11 was me, 9 was dirty dog and medical, across the road was a crazy and pig snorts would drive past to be intimidating when they felt like it. This only happened once they decided they would take me down, after being drugged they tried to get rid of me and threaten me in community, organised crime maoris and hursts hurst vehicle's etc, underworld gang. One vehicle that use to be next to me when trying to run a couple of years or so before. Divvy van, was also part of it. It was corrupt cop who was gunning for me to shut me up and harm me, table tennis violence.

This where I was abused and attempted murder and police playing with me after the event took place outside, putting his foot over the line rubbish. 2018

Back to joining police 2016, prior to that weeks go by and months go by and still not running only a few steps. I finally can do a minute on treadmill and really feel that's my limit. After a couple of years can do the push ups, the swimming, the agility test but can not meet the requirement for beep test, I can only get up to level 4 nearly 5 at that pace it has to be 5.1. So after all my hard work, sitting exam and everything i'm getting to the point this is not going to happen. I have spent so many hours weeks months just trying to get this physical problem sorted knowing that would be my stumbling block, to get to a point where i'm being pressured by family etc financially that I need to do something, also knowing I cant just walk into a job, big problem. Still no ones business. Anyway I should of been put into the police and put on the train station simple as that like what was discussed via media. I was perfectly ready for work and it would of solved all my problems I would of been with like minded people but that was not to be.

We left that home mc nelly rd, because I kept saying its time to go Sandra. we were being listened into and every day I would say it's time to go sandra, big brother was big ears. So they decided they would send me a letter like big brother evicting me as if it was in big brother, it was straight out stupid. Anyway left there. I had had enough of the control on my printer my computer etc, if I wanted black ink it had to be black and blue print outs which is thin blue line police, I was being so controlled I had no freedom at all, it was so hard to get work done on computer even for police applications etc because of this fight online and screwing with me all the time. No one should have to put up with that. It was grey matter doing this. A job that can be done in a minute takes like 5 minutes and you're slowed down because of the nonsense. Violence

They controlled my phone so much so that when I would go travelling they would send me all over the place try get me lost, I thought the dumb asses were trying to show me that if you were a pig you will be sent here there and everywhere and you need to be adaptable but it was actually just a silly game. Remember im being listened to on radio, which I did not know at that time. I had to go to the pigs to get finger prints for application they played with that too red game. I knew at that time the police were just playing with me and it was just a big entertainment for everybody. This is not ok, because my life is not for peoples opinions or viewing, and I was never going to be a cop like they said, it was a game, it was put up on my computer mark will never let you be a cop. I was like, I have spent months years working for this goal while my parents supported me only to have nothing at the end of it and then feed my parents rubbish to get them to harm me financially, is disturbing and no ones business except my mothers and mine. Anyway i'm a better cop than most the bitches I know at least I don't play and harm the public. Nor attempt murder.

So much happened from amazing moments to the most disturbing moments, all of which is through an illegal breach and the intentions were never pure because the evidence states that.

Then they put up media like this

playing the stupid dating game, the illegal online game, while some of it was funny at the time and a good laugh, once they attempted on my life, everything that was a little naughty became violence everywhere I went from the gym it all became sexual harassment, big difference to the funny implied naughty stuff. it had turned and I was a target for such violence, that started 2018 February.

The reason I sent that mug to NZ Parliament is because I knew the people in my life were in high places and it was all coming from parliament police medical etc and there was no where for help. I knew I couldn't get police to help as they only played with me, which is pretty disturbing to be honest, I cant work for an organisation that commits people into mental hospitals to get rid of the crime they committed on an innocent family.

I use to feel very connected to the police but very very sad that I would be used for a breached game and because I didn't go to the exam for physical they decided to get rid of me. I was told to go even though I was falling a bit short on the test. I didn't want to unless I was going to pass, I didn't want charity on that, because I have been told by grey matter pig its not a charity. Im pretty sure they would of passed me but that was too late. Too many games couldn't stand the fact I had problems coming from all directiins and pigs making it harder than it needed to be. Got tired of it.

It was like the children are of age, and there is no need for the mother now. I was so shamed and abused by people who intern shamed and abused my children who were ashamed of their mother. Disturbing

I know on media I had it put to me so many times that my children are making this mess, you can't blame children that do not have the knowledge of what has gone down here to be responsible for what criminals have been done. Every time they have a bad word to say about me, yes they know it is wrong, but the truth is they have been lead to believe a lot of bad things that are lies which have confused the children and made them question so much. I know 100% when my oldest got his girl the disturbing nonsense that took place caused by nurse and his mates, and he controlling behaviour, including Morgans, my children were not happy with my sons choice and felt they lost their brother, I also know that my daughter was asked when we left the country to cut ties with New Zealand and she didn't, the reason was the corruption was internal with some of her friends families, I didn't go into details with her because I didn't want to cause any trouble and I knew she wouldn't believe me. This is not her fault she was hurting and needed her friends, the problem was they are connected to nurse and Morgan perpetrator. My children have serious psychological problems and in pain from a broken family caused by New Zealand's interference, illegal violence, these criminals have put the biggest divide between my family and it is not called for. People will say they choose what they choose to do, not true they didn't get choices there choices with organised crime, my oldest doesn't get to pick which boss will lie to him and which one will be decent, children don't get to pick so much because they are all left to fend for themselves with no family, absolutely f.............. disgusting and more than disturbing. Theres no benefits for them in Australia so they cant afford to get sick. They have had people come into there lives that have caused so much hell which I had to stand back and let them hopefully see for themselves, but they couldn't see and I paid the price for that. I wanted them to make decisions for themselves I didn't want to be that mother that stopped them from some of their friends, I did give my opinion at times and hope would listen but left them to make there own decisions they were adults not for me to control. They have the foundation of decency but had not nice people put in front of them who used my children to harm me. Disturbing internal. Couldn't pre empt them they would not believe me just like the online police I told them about they think i'm having some crazy thinking, perfect to tell the psychiatrist when they were listening and already knew the truth. dirty. The mind control on media and in my life in all my families life is disturbing, the mind control regarding being a cop and giving up special days with family and all this nonsense feed to me on how it's going to be if i'm a cop is a load of rubbish. It's a control and taking of family gatherings and get togethers having children choose others over there own mother on special occasions having them invited out. Dirty on purpose some of it not all of it.

Let me know what the allegations are and what I did because I would really like to know. Just like mental health refuse to answer one of my questions, that is not acceptable I have a right to answers.

I was treated in Australia like I am a criminal a depressed mental with autism who doesn't obey and ripping the government off, plus a child abuser or sexual predator. I am none of the above and it is disgusting.

Get back to pakenham dancing when I was told pay back a bitch and never went back again, he was with a doctor this information being leaked by internal corruption from New Zealand and lies false records. They had no right in my life to start with looking at files that are not there business. I have so many stories of illegal violations and violence done to my family through this breach. No point listing them all, as you should be able to see the problems.

The reason the police in timaru was sent this letter in 2016 is because the very person that was given to me from top cop was suppose to help me, but didn't and told my doctor he didn't believe me, this when we left the country as we had no other person who could give us protection, it was a game from hell. He was sent this letter because I knew he was part of the motel nonsense in 2015/16 and I had to get change, because I was not going to be allowed a life and it was to do with arranged marriages etc and control. The problem was they were making out I was sick and needed my mind reframed as if a criminal or a sexual predator. It was disturbing. The police know exactly what Morgans has done and exactly who Tristans father is and how that took place, I knew nothing of any of this and neither did my family, it was one thing losing the family unit and being a sole mother leaving the country our home etc but it was the worst crime when I found out my sons father is someone else when I have high morals and never was unfaithful. It absolutely destroyed the family beyond any measure. I tried to get DNA they shut everything down on me, refused it.

I was breached on the radio and karaoke like James Corden breaches while in my car, I was being watched, I didn't know I was being seen I knew they could hear. the community was playing a big psychological game depending on what song I sung and the songs were being put in front of me to sing, in the community they see me singing and driving because I love to and now they are watching me like a criminal and telling me to go to work. none of there business why is there a breach? Simon Cowell breach also.

The police knew and so did the medical my medical conditions, they through the insurance got every detail in Australia at McNeilly road through listening on my phone. They treated me like i'll be sick with osteoporosis, had me take a Woman with serious osteoporosis to appointments, they were playing through the council a lot of stupid things, having me take blind people to appointments all sorts then using media to abuse me and imply rubbish, remember my guide is all through illegal breaches not people in person. The police are next to me like a spiritual load of nonsense, because of my letter, as I walk no conversations no accountability I was under full control. I know its hard to believe but it is true every bit of it. This osteoporosis comes from medical records, I was tested in Australia and they said I don't have it. In New Zealand I am told when I was 15 that I would be in line for osteoporosis and to keep an eye on it. so would have bone density scans etc, I had an infusion for it and it disagreed with me, I also was give a life prescription for medication for osteoporosis and never took it as it disagreed with me and I had reactions to it this in New Zealand. Australia says you don't have it, insurance company has a clause won't cover it yet I don't actually have it. Do I have it or don't I have which country to believe.

These people in my life have no idea of the implications of my health conditions or my full history like my ovarian cyst they just make up what they believe and think I can be like everyone else, when it comes to fitness, when they realised I wasn't going to be like a running marathon runner they decided they would send me to mental health threaten the hell out of me on my media and try push me off the edge, they then had someone come up behind me at Waterford rise as if they were going to ram me, I was taken off guard and never got details of number plate, it happened fast and I was in shock, I knew I couldn't go to police because they were not taking my situation seriously and playing a spiritual game. So I thought I would go to hospital for help, hoping to get someone to hear my story and get me help. which did not happen. I will get into this shortly. I took that hospital, gifts for patients at Christmas and they returned my kindness with abuse and false records. Muslim violence big time in medical and police along with officer Daniel false records.

Table Tennis wasn't as bad as dancing violence but it was controlled and I was pretty much being treated as if I am mental and cant concentrate etc when that's rubbish, they were listening into my home. I told them in my home that I needed a partner one on one and I will beat them all, they refused to give me one, I had to go to table tennis and be told by everyone what to do and I was to do what they say, I didn't want to do this because I am person that if I am going to do anything I will perfect at home and then show them how to play, so I didn't see the point in learning anything because it was a lot of different opinions. Cant learn like that, they meant well but sorry that's not how I ran my dancing and its not how I like to learn. I was being treated like I had adhd and all sorts of rubbish. Control and nonsense. I went there just to have a hit with the ball nothing else, I didn't go there to be the best, if I am going to learn something I do it on my own or with one person, because I have spent my whole life being put to the side because of illness where I have to learn my way now, and not only that too many people with too much to say, judging me when they have no idea I actually have disability energy etc. No different than when I was little and entered into adult a and p show and won all the baking, I wouldn't put something in that wasn't up to high standard until it was perfected. If I am going to do something seriously I learn my way, I appreciate peoples inputs but don't like being judged when they don't know my intention for going to a social event, it doesn't mean I want to even play, i'm just happy chatting and getting to know community remember I was going to be community cop, I didn't need any more insults about joining the police thats why I stood back.

Badminton I gave hours to this for free, I was fully qualified with 3 accreditation's and spent a lot of hours learning and watching from professionals. I spent my money giving to these people in the community because I wanted to, but I would of liked respect, cant always have what you want I suppose. I was badly abused in Drouin and the threats was beyond measure. People within badminton knew I had potential but also didn't like me not doing what they said like being part of the board as a actioning member, meaning I didn't want a role, I just wanted to sit back and learn but that wasn't good enough. I was in unfamiliar territory never done badminton before did know a thing about it or the community or extended community or the types of people and there beliefs on where badminton was going, I had to sit back and listen and learn before taking on a role to make change. I don't do anything unless I have my information first, I don't wing things or have a big head or big mouth about how great I am. I like to have my foundation before I stand otherwise too many holes and won't last long in that position. Im about change in bulk not one person but massive groups, this was a field that needed to grow from the bottom up, but no one can see where the problems are. I don't want to give my opinion my skills like they tried making me do because when im ready you will get my opinion and it will be a concrete stable opinion not a, it may work for the community but, this is how its going to work and this is what we are going to do if we want success, based on the evidence of the last few years of failure. Why because everything in the community is falling around there ears, they all have a lot to say, no action and no understanding of what the problem is, I sat back and watched all sorts of trials that failed because they don't know how to get this off the ground. I was not prepared to work for free and be on all these boards and involved in coaching etc when I cant afford to live, the role this needs is a full-time role to get it off the ground and im not the slave for it. Same with dancing, i'm not the slave for it, I cant live on crumbs get emotionally bashed and do this for the community. I don't even like saying how I think as it's no ones business but this crime is pretty cruel. People look at me as if I am stupid, I know who's stupid, how's the badminton going, got lots of people have you? How about dancing how many more places are shutting down? Big mistake abusing gold that actually has proven experience in changing communities.

I am a team player but not with outdated furniture, there is no forwards in that, its not an insult its just people go for their own reasons it might be just to lend a hand to keep it running or maybe just to score or whatever either way its only driven people that make changes. Im not going to go in with a big mouth with no foundation ever. I will not be part of people who have defamed me in the community and expect me to work under people that don't know what they are doing, I resigned for a reason at Drouin. They only had me for the second year so I could show them what they will loose, because they mistreated me so bad the first year, I won't take the insults putdowns and everything in-between let alone the games from the breach and Morgan violence. It's not acceptable. I will leave it there I could go into details but not worth my energy. Being Told i'm resilient, after defamation is nines, giving insulting gifts like a defuser as a end of year gift, threats and bullshit. I was in rent home when they put defuser in persons room when they die, so they gave me one, they were abusing me. dirty dirty community. I was psychological violence caused by corrupt cops. then corrupt TGM236 one of them who drives that car, turned up to the break up, I was absolutely steaming. Steam coming out my ears so badly harmed by these people, some of them not knowing the psychology of what's being played out, they may of been asked to do something innocently, they do not realise the people behind this were harming me. Just like the defuser, It may of been organised by one of the perpetrators as an insult to injury. But knowing the breach there is a chance these people in community are just not very nice.

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West Gippsland Hospital to be continued Attempted Murder

Latrobe Regional Hospital - Flynn

Before the attempted murders started and horrific violence. Singh and Muslim violence 3 attempts of murder and violence.

West Gippsland Hospital

Latrobe Regional Hospital Flynn

Timaru Kensington

Auckland mental health services

Was suppose to be freedom but was a life sentence destruction and horrific cruel violence.